Well, I have to say I never thought I'd see the day when I'd set up my own blog and wilfully subjected too many people to my not-completely-formed nor really coherent views on life...but hey, it's happened. Not really sure who would really want to read any of my ramblings, I'm never too sure whether I want to read others either...for some reason I feel the urge to get online and do this though.
Well, my name is Lucy and I'm from North Wales...I'm 25 and still don't have a proper job, nor a home, nor a partner...am just a classic outcome of the Blairite educational era...lots of qualifications but seemingly not so many prospects...not that I mind of course, but the unpaid work experience and background angst of untouched student debt, is starting to aggravate the old worry lines just a little...nevertheless, am hoping that by writing to you all, I may find some kind of solace, hear your views on things that are close to my heart and maybe even save the world from the ever-apparent gloomy predicament its leaders unapologetically have awaiting it.
I really want to help...it sounds so cheesy and insincere, but I really do, and as a citizen of the flourishing Western world, I am so uncomfortable with role we have played in dismantling the histories and cultures of the Earth, and the way in which we have, and continue to impose such Western superiority upon everyone else. Why can't we see all humans as the same, as just mirrors of ourselves, just with slightly differing peculiarities that make us all unique? I know I sound naive, but as I am getting older and learning more and more things about life, this belief is just getting stronger. Does anyone else feel the same as me? I feel as though my generation has just given up. But hey, I may be saying all this, but I am still just sitting here in front of the computer, massaging my conscience. Am so fed up of doing this, thinking I am helping the world, when in actual fact I'm just another cog in the wheel of human fallibility, stupidity.
My plan is to help the world through law and social theory (yep, more studying and probably more crippling loans). Am so afraid of writing my Phd proposal because I want it to be perfect (not least to get the necessary funding)...I want to reveal how the world we experience is just a construction and therefore it can be changed for the better. I want to show how instilled perceptions and legal prescriptions of what is normal and deviant behaviour are all myths, each and every one tools to be used in the hands of the powerful. It's all very Hardt and Negri, isn't it? How quaint. But I mean it. And it's not as though there haven't been philosophers, theorists etc. etc. over thousands of years who haven't already said all of what I want to say before...but we need to find some way of putting what we preach into practice.
Am just intrigued to hear what people think can be done to save the world. I don't even have a specific agenda, a focus, I am just a genuine person with a genuine belief in our emancipation from our oppressors. Am talking specificaly though, of our disgraceful exploitation of the developing world - the world we keep underdeveloped in order to maintain our privileges, our routines, our consumerism, our smug know-allness about the Other. Iraq...that gut feeling of there being something morally wrong all along, the clear indications of ulterior agendas...how fucking obvious do you want it all to be? Are we all going to wait until those that we oppress have all died, have vanished, have been trampled into their final submission? If that happens, it will be the prosperous who will falter in the end. Because we are all 'underdeveloped' without our resources.
The ambiguity of law, the social construction of law and its imbedded signifiers that tell us through the outrageous subtlety of the media what is good and what is bad, who is a friend and who is an enemy. It is those who control law's two-faced discourse that use it to ultimately control us, control our perceptions and our understandings of people who are not one of 'us'. The cycle of mistrust is played out and taken advantage of in order to fuel support for the next move of an unashamed and similarly incompetent hegemon's victim of greed.
Before I go on and disappear up my own backside, I'll cease for tonight. But for those of this world who wish to challange injustice, transform human experience and free ourselves from the stigma of society, then please...talk to me. All those who supported the RTS, other movements that aim to contradict the legal diahorrea of governmentality and formality...where are you?
Peace, another cheese (not a piece of cheese)...but that is all I would wish upon anyone.
Yeoldefinch